For a slow work season, I sure crammed a lot of shit into February-May, in this the year of our lord Grimace 2023. Crush Scene recorded a whole ass album, we did a video shoot, we are planning a tour. Tomboy(y) toured through Nashville and Asheville. Pondering was done and budgets were cut but we made it happen. From where I’m sitting it’s hard to complain, but as it goes it’s not perfect. One thing is certain and that is I am pretty fucking happy with the life I’ve built for myself and my strength to get better at choosing things that are best for me every day. Especially when it’s a hard decision that maybe hurts a little in the moment but will save me and others a lot more hurt later.

So many people I love are in pain right now. It’s hard to watch people learn, but all you can do is be gentle and supportive and loving. I am grateful for those who did this for me when I used to be an asshole a lot, or when I still indulge in asshole-like behaviors, to others but to myself in particular.

Now that I’m used to being alone, I kind of love it. And when some sort of interesting person comes along, it’s almost annoying. I’m not afraid of intimacy, but I hate how much I thought it was something I needed before. Unlearning so much about what life looks like lately and it’s beautiful to continue to find out there’s no right way to accomplish anything. I hope I can focus on writing the next few months, and there is a lot of music and touring happening that I also am so excited for. I’m glad I’m not burnt out but constantly inspired by doing things and stuff. What a wonderful community that keeps growing around me!

Love u,

Madalyn